Today didn't start out so bad. I woke up early as always, had an unusually healthy breakfast, and even had the time to reflect on the message at the service the previous day about praying without ceasing.
I went to work and I suddenly had mixed feelings about my career. 5 years into my profession, I still feel insecure about my skill and, given my passion for things not related to the law, I still wonder whether I'm actually still fit for this job. Circumstances (major, life-changing ones) the past week made me rethink about my track as a photographer. Suddenly, I want to devote a lot of time on it (again). I was telling my friend that morning that I wanted to have lunch alone at the condo that day, but due to some meetings, I didn't have the time to leave the office for lunch.
As the day progressed, I received not-so-good news that may impact my future/my career. Later in the afternoon, I was asked to go to the Supreme Court for research. I went back to my old office to ask for help from a former colleague, who was nice enough to accommodate me. 'Also met up with an old blockmate. It felt strange visiting the court compound. It was the second time I visited since my employment ended a year ago. Some of the guards/employees still remembered me and were asking me where I work now. Whenever I mention I work at a private company, they would ask why I would prefer that over working at a government office.
It was getting late, and people were raring to leave because of SONA and the traffic. I wasn't able to get the documents I needed to research on, and I thought about postponing my leave (I'm supposed to go to Palawan this week with the family), so I can finish this tomorrow. I felt frustrated at how difficult it was to obtain documents from government offices. I was even misinformed that some records were destroyed during Ondoy. Good thing the person in charge rechecked and told me the records are in tact.
On our way back to the office, we passed through Quirino ave. When I glanced to my left, I saw a black car with a weird contraption on the windshield. It took me a few seconds to realize that the contraption was a camera, and a car scene was being filmed. I tried to look who was inside the vehicle, and lo and behold, it was Ser Chief and Maya. Haha. I think I exclaimed so loudly that the driver told me, "Gusto niyo pala sila, Ma'am?". I thought I was expressing a completely normal reaction. I felt that anyone, BCWMH fan or not, would've been as excited. :))
When I got to the office, I was so hungry that I almost consumed an entire slice of chocolate campfire cake from Purple Oven, bought by one of the people from the department. It's like devil's food cake from Chockiss, but infinitely better. I told our boss that I wanted to postpone my trip so I can finish the work at the courts, but he told me to push through with my flight. I'll just probably coordinate with them while I'm on vacation.
I went home earlier today to an (almost) full house again. Though I was a bit late, everyone else was still at the dining table, talking and laughing. It lifted my mood for a while. And then I remembered that Pwintet (aka Princess. See above pic) is already dying and may pass on anytime soon, as told by the vet this morning. She's been in an out of the vet for weeks now and she has been really weak. She couldn't get up anymore. My mom and our maid cried the whole day when they heard the news. My mom's eyes were puffy from crying. We visited Pwintet at the vet after dinner and I felt bad that I'll be in Palawan until Friday and it may be the last time I was seeing her. Then we rushed home because I haven't packed yet and I need to do some other work.
It has been a long, strange, and confusing day and I honestly don't know how to end this entry. Ehe. Hoping to get some stability and lots of great photos in Palawan.
